I am so ready for this next step in life, but I'm starting to get a little nervous about it. I've moved out of my parents' house before, but this time it's different. (I just sung those last words in my head while I typed them... anyone know the band?) I'm not moving WITH someone. I'm doing this solo. It's scary. And in just a couple years I'll be moving out of state! Woah. That's gonna be huge. I can't even think about that one right now.
What I'm really excited about is the fact that I can be selfish with this step in my life because I am taking it alone. I look forward to that. I in no way regret moving out the first time with my boyfriend at the time. It was a learning experience. Honestly though, with his job he worked 48-hour shifts and I would be home alone a lot anyways, so maybe I shouldn't be as scared as I am. I sort of know what it's like to live alone. It's definitely peaceful. (Until you're all by yourself and someone knocks on the door at 9:30 p.m. because their cat jumped the fence into your backyard and won't jump back over, but in that moment that you are walking up to the door SLOWLY to look through the peep hole you think there's a killer on the other side.)
Change is good. It's how we grow as individuals and, most importantly for me right now, it's how we "find ourselves." I've never truly understood what that phrase meant until now. I know what I want for my future and it's all I'm focusing on, which is causing me to not live in the present. I'm not enjoying the moment. I plan to work on it and will share the process. I have high hopes!
As promised:
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| Lt. Dangle and me. My favorite costumed person of the night! |
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| The bro with Zoolander characters. |
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| Rufio taught me how to use my sais in a fight. |
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| The raddest TMNT group ever! |
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| Michelangelo and "Raul" (That's what a Chipotle worker thought my turtle's name was haha). |
- LJ
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